WEDDING BELLS ARE RINGING
This time the ringing bells are Mine!!
Its a lunch reception on 25 Dec 2009 at Mirama Hotel
There is still tons not done yet!!
I need to get more quotes for Videographer & Photographer.
I need to get facial done when the dates are closer.
I need to get my gown fitting done.
I need to go for my bridal shoot.
I need to get Mani & Pedi cure done when the dates are closer.
I need to get Shoes
I need to get some chinese customs done.
I need to confirm the bridal car.
I need to confirm my guest list.
I need to give out the invitation cards.
So many things, So little time!!
For Him..
HAPPY 28th BIRTHDAY...
I LOVE YOU!!
Cello: A Passion of my Life
I would never forget the 1st time I was choosen to take up that instrument. I would never forget the time where I managed to play my first piece of score. I would never forget practising for the first concert. I would never ever ever ever forget the time when the full orchestra was in practise session and I was part of it.
If I hadn't been so blinded by relationship, I guess, I would have performed at the SYF (Singapore Youth Festival).
Though its been years since I last draw the bow and placed my finger on the finger board, I still have that passion burning.
Its time for me to pick it up again and including you in my life.
Fate
Its the first time I heard you tear over the phone. For me. Its the first time I saw you tear infront of me. I did put up a front. I appear strong.
But for you, I did. I really cried. That was a late gift from you.
We decided to defy fate. For that moment, I truely believed that I could. Yet fate has a funny way of letting you know, if we were not fated back then, we were also not fated now. You have walked out of my life a few years ago and walked back in by accident again. Though I do not have more path for you to leave your foot prints on. I truely wish you well.
I'll keep the memories together with the foot prints I've collected and bury it deep inside the earth.
Taken from the internet, somewhere...
Something that I've been thinking about~
Friends around me are getting preggy. I've been have this weird dream that I'm preggy and didn't have any clue till the tummy got very big & the baby moment is more frequent. (like 5 months).
Some of my friends do family planning, Some don't. For those, that did the planning. I really admire them alot for managing to get 1 in the stomach. For those that did, I have loads of questions for them. Besides the joys of a new life.
Q1. How do you manage your daily expenses?
Q2. If your preggy wife is not working, how can you manage to make ends meet?
Q3. Is your wife going back to the workforce after confinment or will she be taking care of the baby full time?
Q4. Will you feel as if you're going to explode? Being a mother at such a young age?
Q5. What are the things that you're able to give up when the baby is born?
Q6. What was your 1st reaction?
Q7. Will panick when you know that there are so many things and responsibility for the new born?
Q8. Will you start worrying if you have overspent and you can't buy diappers and milk power for the baby?
Gosh there are so much commitment to a child. Carrying the baby in the stomach for 9 months.
That really scare the hell out of me.
No offenses to preggy mummys or mummys, its just some questions that are boiling inside of me.
I'm standing in the same spot of too long.
Its time to make my decision.
I may still love you, I may still care for you, the energy I no longer have.
You may still be blaming me from our last quarrel/ last fight/ last arguement/ last hurt.
You may feel that I don't change thus our problem keeps looping.
You have your plus points, I appreciate. I'm changing, trying to rebuilt our ship.
Nothing worked.
Till day, you still blame me for all e quarrels that we going through now.
Its like asking me to clap using 1 hand.
What I learnt today.
You are responsible for yourself. Means: Having to be in control of your own actions, own state of mind, own emotions. You are e CEO of yourself. No one can u "hey Elle, you are useless" it'll only be true if u believed what others say. In short, they are your CEO for your life.
Being married doesn't mean that the husband responsible for his wife. Neither is the wife responsible for her husband.
Control yr life, or someone else will do it for you.
Sometimes stepping back & taking a look at the situation that you are angry or upset about. Looking at e situation from a 3rd person point of view with a detach feeling and find a better state that u can solve e situation. After that, just apply that state into e situation.
I know it works for me. It might just work for you..
